I’m having problems, but not problems like the people in the movie Biutiful, which I just watched last night.
Ok. What are your problems?
I’m not doing well enough. At anything.
My jobs. My social life. Communication. Family. Planning ahead. Saying the right thing. Staying awake when I’m supposed to be awake. My classes. Everything.
Oh? This is…quite serious. It sounds like you’re…
What? But really. My own inadequacy is overwhelming.
So no one came out and told you that. Interesting. Do you suspect that everyone else is better?
But I think they are.
Stop. They’re not. You’re struggling along amidst a group of millions of people who are struggling along and their impressions of their interactions with you (if there are any) will not be enough to make them really notice or shun you for these things. You can’t compare yourself to them because you’re not them and they’re not you. They probably think the same about their own problems most of the time. They just generally hide it from the public like you do. Some of them may even think that you’re the one who has it all together.
Well. They’re crazy if they think that. It’s just…
Stop being a perfectionist. Be comfortable with the struggle. Do your best. Carry on along with the rest of the other humans, have confidence in what you do, and forgive yourself for not being next-to-God perfection (read: get over yourself).